Hello everyone! It's me!! I'm finally back ;D I've been waiting to write about this for so long hahahaha! After going through thick and thin for a whole month, I'm finally free from SPM now. SPM IS OVER YAYYY! I still can't believe my days of suffering is finally over. I should be feeling free and happy as my high school life has finally ended. No more school days, no more homework, no more stress.... Yet, deep inside my conscious mind, I'm not as excited as I thought. I actually feel lost. Perhaps this is because after graduated from high school and I won't be seeing all my friends and teachers that often. It's kinda sad right :( I'm sure I'm gonna miss everything in high school, especially my best friendssssss <3 Okay, let's talk about SPM, overall I think it was okay. Although I regret not studying harder back in high school,but I tried my best. So yeah, forget the past but remember the lesson, learn from it. Begin again.

And of course, I'm so happy to be back here on the blog. I miss my blog so much!
How time flies! I know I've said that too much, but I'm not kidding. It's December now, it's time for CHRISTMAS :D Oh ya, I'm here to blog about my graduation day (more about my classmates and bestfriend) I hope you find this interesting <3 First of all, I would like to congratulate all of the students including myself huehuehue. 2017 might be the last year for us as students of high school. Thank you for the amazing 5 years! But I believe our learning actually start from today, new chapter of life has just begun. Well, the best thing about high school is that high school is the best place to make life-long friendship. As previously mentioned, I'm really thankful to have a bunch of crazy classmates. They changed my mind, as well as my life. So now, let me share some of the photos that I took with them :P

Okay, I shall stop here now. Another boring post I know but I hope you enjoy reading it.. Days passed like minutes. Wake up, eat, sleep and repeat.. the routine continue the next day Ugghhhhh! How pathetic is my life zzz Btw, as an update, I'm going to work in the middle of January. I'm so excited about it XD
HAHAHA It's been a while since my last update. SPM is over now so I'll update more start from now. STAY TUNED :) Thanks for taking your time to read this. xx

Never feel alone, because you aren't.  
Even though you may feel like the only person in the world going through it, you aren't. 

It's so easy to make mistake that you're struggling alone, but you have to remember that there are people out there going through the same thing as you, and some of them also want to help you. I know it feels dark now but know that the lil light that is bursting shine is waiting for you. It will always waiting for you.

Let yourself be free and let yourself heal.

To Mr. Anonymous,

Few months ago, I met this guy. I knew him since last year but we don't talk much that time. Things were great. After awhile, we fell for each other and we both knew it, we were just kind of like more than friends. He's cute, funny, silly, have his own mind and sweeeet. We can talk for hours non stop with endless topics yet won't get bored. Kinda miss those night when I was about to sleep but he spend his time to chat with me and it makes me stay awake even when I'm tired af, sometimes he makes me feel hyper of chatting with him and we can chat till 2am yet I have to wake up at 5am the next morning. I remember I used to reply him IDK instead of telling him the truth sometimes (but sometimes I really dk tho) All these lil things made me so happy he had no idea. We got into a relationship really soon but it was a fairy tale love with a bad ending hmmm. We started to have conflict and argument on small things. I used to cry everytime when we end our call that time. I've tried so hard to fix the problem but it didn't seem to get any better. At last, we decided to stay just friend. Sometimes, fixing a problem requires effort from both sides. Seeing our relationship ended just like this really broke me.

Relationship are normally perfect and beautiful in the beginning but it's not always going to be the same. The honeymoon phase will end later but if both side are willing to make effort to sustain it, no one can break the relationship :)) All I can say is the timing between us ain't right. It's not his fault neither mine. I just wanna thank him for everything. I dont't regret knowing him at all and I'm glad that he was a part if my life.

I guess he'll always have a special spot in my heart.

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The truth is, I will never regret meeting you. I don't think I would be the same person i am if I had not meet you. I obviously would not have experienced a deep liking for someone if I had not met you. Please remember that you're an amazing person! The times you make me happy, make me feel things I've never felt before, make me feel special, respect all my "weird" decision, and cared about, and that's what I like about you. You're just yourself, and that's my favourite part. You make me feel alright with myself. Never could I thank you enough for making me look at life a lot differently, a lot happily.

Thank you for suckering me into having a deep crush on you.

Thank you. 😊

"Someday everything will make a perfect sense."

While looking through all the pictures we took yesterday, I realise how important my classmates (5cekalians) are to me. It was a last minute decision to blog about yesterday - an outing with this crazy bunch

It reminds me of how much my life has changed. 5C (my class) has not been the only reason of change for me in my life, but it played a pivotal role. I remember I used to dislike this class when I know I'm in this class last year. I used to study very hard to get good grades in exams so that I can get rid of this class and back to "Bakti family". But there's always a room for change. Although I hate this class, they are still there for me whenever I need them, they are still willing to help me without asking anything in return. And all these little things, melted my heart. Therefore, I decided to stay in this class in my final year in high school. And I never regret my decision till now. :)

Let's get back on the topic hahahah😂 We've planned to out for shooting our class photo since two months ago. As you know, yesterday was a photo shoot day😂 We went to The Waterfront @ Desa Park City.

Lemme share some of the pictures we captured yesterday.

"People change for one of two reasons. They have learned a lot, or they have been hurt too many times."

As the days go by, I realise that there are a lot of things had changed. I don't even have time to feel regret about it. Everything happens so sudden. It's like you expect the world to be fair with you but the world does not work this way. The nicer you are, the worse you are treated.

"Don't waste your time thinking about things that you can't change."

You can choose to look at every situations in two ways: positively or negatively.  There are so many wonderful things for us to enjoy. The little things, the little moments.. Oh wait, they ain't little ;) SO ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE😊

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. In the bad times, choose to grow stronger :)"

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. So, be grateful for every second of every day that you spend with the people you love. There is always something to be thankful for ;) Life is so precious❤️ Do what you've been dreaming of doing. Enjoy every moment. And follow you heart completely

And do it all while you still have chance.

// Reminder: Find a reason to be happy everyday :) Be happy because of the presence of fear and disappointment. Every minute you spend frowning is 60 seconds of happiness lost.

Sending love from me to you. XX

Life is a long journey, loaded with happiness as well as painful moments. Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together. 

Things just don't seem to be going right. Ugh. Maybe we just needed time? A little space to figure things out. I hadn't completely picked my feet up when I walked away. You never gave me a reason not trust your words because you showed me everything with action. I wasn't able to fully give you all of me. I was like a turtle. Sticking my head out, interested in you but quick to pull back and hide in my shell.

Maybe the timing was wrong.
 We met at the wrong time.

Recently, I got my Ujian 1's result. OMG It was my worst exam result. Worse than last year. I regret not studying harder :( I'll take this as a lesson learnt. Will do better in next exam :)

Let's get back to the topic,
I always have the question in my mind, ALWAYS. Will I regret, if I do my SPM terribly? Probably YES. Then, I started to doubt myself every time this question popped in my mind. Why do I have to do that in my SPM? I just have to do my best and strive for the best! Do the best you can, work hard. Fighting! The question is, am I doing it right? Apparently, NO. I am wasting every second of my life right now, doing nothing productive and losing my interest in studying.

I don't get a thing about those three science subjects! That's why I am regretting of choosing science stream, but I have to be responsible for my decision. I eventually realized, I don't really love chemistry nor physic actually! Anyway, I will strive for the best lah. SPM is never a bed of roses, I can't slack anymore. Hopefully, I can really work hard, spend less time on using phone and spend more time on my revision.

Anyway here's 5 things to do if you didn’t get the results you were looking for,
1. Accept it for what it is
If you at least managed to pass, try to focus on this as a positive.
2. Stop comparing yourself to others
You have to keep your focus on yourself and your own goals. Your friends have their own paths to follow.
3. Know that you can do better next time
Maybe you need to try a different study strategy all together. Whatever didn't work for you this time can be changed up to ensure that you're better prepared for next exam.
4. Let out your emotions
It’s not always good to ‘keep it all in’. Sometimes having a good old cry will really help the situation.
5. Work harder
Study more. Figure out where your weaknesses are in studying and make sure that you focus on those weaknesses.

"Everything you do now is for your future. Think about it :>"

I definitely needed a new look to this little blog, so I give my blog a little changes this afternoon. I hope you guys like it too :) I went for quite a minimal theme. I really like it! I really hope that you guys will still continue enjoy reading my blogposts and I appreciate it. THANK YOU <3

1. She's 6teen. She's funny and cute. A long distance runner. She think she's a smart and beautiful girl *erhemmmm*

2. She is the best secret keeper. I can talk to her about anything and everything, and she will always be there to listen.

3. She knows everything I’ve ever been through the good and the bad. And she’ll never judge me for it.

4. I can always rely on her. She will always be there for me through thick and thin.


5. She took care of me when I cried in the middle of the night

6. I love how honest she always are. She always tell me when I’m wrong.

7. She will motivate me to pursue whatever my dreams are. And she will inspire me and support me.

8. I can laugh with her about the stupidest things in the world. We can do the silliest things together :p

9. She understands me better than my best friend and myself.


10. She believe in me even when no one else does. Thanks for not giving up on me and supporting me. I’m glad, and appreciate all of your love and support. I know I couldn’t have done everything without her I know I couldn’t. You're me inspiration :)

Hey finally I have time to update my blog! Have been quite busy recently because of school activities and exam. Anyway today I'm gonna talk about my thoughts recently. Well, I'm 17 now and I have no idea what I want to do with my future. I feel empty, I have no idea what I want to do next ughhh! I really want to find out my "thing" and just be happy and study but this ain't that easy. I am really really confused about my future. I know for sure I have to go to college but the problem is that I have no idea what I want to study. I have no special interest in anything. I’m not an ambitious person. My best friends are planning their future now.  They have a plan, they know what to do next.— I’m glad for them. But where will I be? I know that my time will come soon. But this one thought haunt me every day. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WANT TO DO NEXT :(

Oh hey guys! sorry for not updating my blog. It has been a pretty busy first 2 months of the year. Without actually realising, 2 month has just passed and it is already mid of February. Woooh.. time flies. A lot has happened throughout this two months. I have been busy with basketball training and competition. HERE'S A GOOD NEWS!! We got 4th. I know it's not the best but it's better compared with last year. I'm here today to blog about basketball competition and my bff's birthday (as I promised in my last blogpost//Sorry I'm super super late)😂

To: HASHTAG GROUP
First of all, I want to thanks the funniest coach ever, LZH :) Thanks for not giving up on me and still encourage me. Sorry for all the mistakes that I did, I'M SO SO SO SORRY. And the three pretty girlsss, Tzeeng, Jiaxin and Jeatyinn <3 You all are amazing af!! I couldn't imagine what will happen withou you guys :) The 3 SUPER VIP in hashtag group :D AND MY TEAMMATES! Thank you for everything. I really appreciate it <3 Thanks for all those wonderful memories you guys have given me. I'll never forget it :''>

I'll post my bff's bday photos now.. I AM SORRY BECAUSE THIS IS A SUPER SUPER LATE BLOSGPOST (I planned to post this on January but I was too busy sorry!!) :( Oh well, we went to Empire to celebrate CY's bday. It's a photogenic place <3 Highly recommend you to visit this ^^ We had lunch together at Burger Junkyard. The employees are friendly and the cashier may even suggest burgers to you if you have trouble deciding which one to go for :p